As much as I might hate it, this needs to be done.

[KC]

Hello, all.

I've been clinging to Aragorn and Eowyn as desperately as I possibly can for the past few months, and it isn't fair you all of you. I think that these two characters should *sob* be put up for audition. I haven't even been able to fill out the new audition form.

I love you all, and I dearly, DEARLY love this site. You all are so incredibly talented, and you deserve people who can post when they promise to do so. I have been completely awful lately.

I am afraid that I've lost my muse. My father just lost his job, and a bunch of my family's savings was not so wisely invested, so I'm a bit panicked right now with scraping together enough money to stay in my private school. I'm trying to find another job and balance all of my extra curriculars but it's so hard. I'm exhausted and just always on the brink of tears.

I'm actually crying right now as I type because I really don't want to do this, but I know that it's the best for the site. I'm sorry for not doing this sooner. I've been lurking, knowing I should give up my characters, but when I've played them for so long, it really took me a lot of time.

There's no way in hell that I'm going away completely. I'll lurk and read all of your amazing posts. (And, to tell the truth, I'll pray that Aragorn isn't snatched up too quickly because I'm going to miss him quite a bit. I know I'm doing the right thing, but...)

My Lady Arwen, thank you for creating such a fabulous site. It's amazing to have been here from the start and to see how much it really flourished. A million hugs, sweetie.

And, Leggy, I am really, REALLY going to miss rp-ing with you, darling. You are so talented and I love you to pieces.

There's this little voice in my head saying, "KC, you can do it. Stay!" so I have to wrap this up before I start listening to it.

I love you all, and I'm so immensely sorry that I just can't keep up at this time. You all are wonderful.

KC

[Lady Arwen]

Darling, I understand completely. I've had my own share of troubles (as I continue to have) and it's hard to find the time and muse to post. I am glad that you are at least doing well in school, and that you have the strength to go on, but it worries me that you are as stressed as you are.

I want you to remember to relax above all things, in this dark hour. It's not something that seems feasible, I know, but if you take 5 minutes to draw out a bath and soak in bubbles for a little while, it will help ease your mind. I've known you long enough now that you don't really take KC time out for the day, so do your best to find some. If you have to, cut out something that you really don't need. I had to cut theatre out of my life, because I needed time at my job and in school. It sucks, but you have to do it.

^^

Also, remember that I love you a lot and will always be there for you. <3

[KC]

Hannah, thank you so much, sweetie. I don't know what I'd do without you. I just don't know what to do because I've committed to so many things and I have so many people depending on me. It's just crazy. I trust that things will get better and wind down eventually. I just can't wait for that to happen.

tindomion said:

Perhaps, if Admin and Mods did not mind, ( and you ) your characters could be NPC's for a while, in case you felt you wanted to return, or had the time . I know, after putting so much into characters to leave them is incredibly hard. (( I had to do that on one site due to the fact that the kids there HATED him - because he was , yes indeed, an evil character, and they were in fact, supposed to hate him, but the b*tchyness and childish nastiness were in the end, so bad, that I thought **** them, and deleted him. However, I did transport him elsewhere, where I still enjoy playing him. , but I left a heck of a lot of LONG, character bulding posts and stories behind, about 800 posts I think, and it still annoys me to think of the time I wasted! My fault, really, I should have saved them elsewhere. ))

My Lady, is this possible? I know that it's not fair to people who want to rp with an Aragorn or Eowyn now, but when things calm down...

And Tin, thank you SO much. Your kind words mean so very much to me. I wanted very badly to rp with you since your posts are brilliant.

Thank you both for being so understanding.

[Lady Arwen]

KC, of course it's possible, anything is possible. If you wouldn't mind, we could play your characters until you had the time to come back, and in the mean time, you could check in and see how badly we are butchering your characters.

^^

Of course, it would mean anyone who wanted to play Aragorn or Eowyn would need to fill out an NPC form and list the specific thread they were using them for, and no one person could "claim" the character because they would be in fact, yours.

And why wouldn't I be understanding? I remember back when you were trying to pick a college to go to, let alone going there, your first finals week, and who could forget the 200 page thread?

[KC]

Thank you all. I truly love you guys. I'll drop by every once in a while to dole out *HUGS* and read all of your amazing writing. I hope that everything will be in order in a couple of months, and I'll race back to posting.


KC